It's because you have social anxiety. You should speak with a dermatologist about your answers to this quiz to get a proper diagnosis. And the answer is no!!!!! The more time you spend alone, the harder it is to conjure up the energy to insert yourself back into the world. It feels like an overwhelming task. Doctors are wonderful. She had mental health issues and also now has a physical disability on top of this. When I got home, my husband was out. A gunman killed eight students and two teachers at Santa Fe High School outside Houston — and scarred hundreds, perhaps thousands more. I have changed many jobs, I work as a contractor and have worked at same place for more than 4 months in last 4 years. The world keeps moving forward with so much pain and ugliness that I prefer to hide! I've found this page right now because I'm facing the issue yet again and I see it's actually more to do with others than it is ourseless. Your follow up was very comforting. But it’s the porcelain of the bathtub that calls. Sometimes the right person can make you want to be on time and go with them maybe your husband didn't find the really happy unique person you are and someone else will. Like "I don't want to do this anymore." Thank you.. -Bree. May you begin to start feeling better soon!! So I did not become a doctor. I wish I never had to leave my home again. It is not as impressive as being a doctor. I'm 25 with a 11 month old son. It seems like your have avoidant personality disorder. Vonny Registered User. Sadness….and maybe elation if this payment doesn’t need to be made anymore. It ended with me in hospital, and now I'm treated very differently. There's always a million complications in the way when we do. it’s gotten to the point where I don’t want to leave my house anymore or check the news, Government, fires, shootings, cancer..... wtf else you got for us!!! Hate to see him down. Do you have a fear of being judge more than you normally would be? Also my adult daughter leaves most everything up to me, cleaning, cooking and if I don’t … That is who I am and I accept it with no apologies. I really try to only leave once a week for groceries. Anonymous. I don’t know what to do or think. I don't know what to do. 7) I am not able to go to doctor becasue i dont want to take a break from work thinking I will loose the money for the day. She is manipulative and always saying mean, rude things to me. My doctor prescribed me Cymbalta so I am hoping it will help. I don't feel depressed, or lonely or anything like that. You then begin to wonder what is wrong with you. But, it seems like only once or twice a month, I'll go out by myself to do something, and it's only to go to the Mall to buy stuff. I don’t want to lose everything. And you waste your life. I don't want to live with my parents anymore I've been very depressed lately and recently attempted to escape the house. I love him and love my time with him, but I just need the time alone. You stay stuck in a self-destructive cycle you aren’t sure how to break, even though you’re clearly unhappy. This is their song "The Reason I Don't Leave My House Anymore" off their self-titled album. Do these symptoms appear near your inner thighs, armpits, chest, groin, or buttocks? Your answers indicate you’ve experienced symptoms commonly associated with HS. But you also become lazy. 6. I think what we need to do is to go out no matter what. Before I got pregnant I was very happy, in love and couldn't wait to marry him. But maybe not as extreme because if I could never go out I never would and that's weird I know! SHARE. 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I work from home so I don't have a need, and my husband home schools our son, so he takes him out for socialization and I don't have to do this anymore. You are very special to God, your family, your friends, your community and the world. I make up excuses so people will think I'm busy. I got into running. I also have low self worth due to years of abuse It felt like he was singing to us. For me not wanting to leave the house is about needing safety. In the last 6 months, have these bumps reappeared 3 or more times? est un film réalisé par Macon Blair avec Melanie Lynskey, Elijah Wood. I don't answer my door unless I know who it is. I cook my meals. im so sorry to hear about your grandfather and dad. I simply hate going anywhere, even if it's on a date, or to the mall, or to the beach with my friends. I don’t even wanna think about my son going from home to home because I would never want him alone with his drug addicted dad. I leave my house about once a week to every other week - with the longest has been not leaving my house for a month. When he walked through the door and came to give me a hug, I burst into tears -- big gigantic, hard to breathe tears. I don’t have anything to say anymore... i feel like we are being tested. I must add one more thing: I am ALWAYS late. Sure, I feel lonely at times and weird being the only person I know that is way happier here then there. I do. Red Robot had live nostalgia show at the Millville Grange Hall just East of Redding California. You must be very rich and very lucky to b able to travel the world seeing the stones. I do get attention sometimes when I go out but I don't accept it. 19 here and I see everyone else my age thriving in life and I feel somehow stunted. I HATE going anyplace. Today at 6:28 AM CUT IT OUT! The more energy I expend being out the more downtime I need. My family all sees me as a person that has to stay home and help my parents retire but I don't want to do that. I hated it. He is getting really sick of my behaviour but I don't know how to make myself better? we live in a tiny 500 sq feet house with 8 people. Take the quiz to see if your symptoms may be HS—a chronic inflammatory skin condition that may be linked to the immune system. You think too much. Does anyone else feel like this? Please try reading the Bible, New Testament, to start, and try to find a warm, loving church. But this problem was here long before her physical issues. I don’t sit in my house and mope around. I like to garden in my yard, cook in my kitchen, and create works of art in my studio. I feel as though nothing matters anymore, I daydream of leaving this house and getting my own place but I don’t have the resources or the will power anymore. Three years ago, she was calling me names and yelling. I talked to my dad too. Am I weird? When she died, I died emotionally just not physically. I saw your reply and felt the need to reply. Have your physical symptoms, such as sores, wounds, or pain, impacted your lifestyle or mental outlook? The more I fret or dwell on it the worse it seems. I have this same problem. From the beginning, he saw that I didn't like leaving the house, and now it has become a real problem. I don't like to leave my house either. I don’t want to be together 24/7. I leave the house often. 4 COMMENTS. Don’t Want To Live Anymore. I don't want to leave the house . They must not be happy themselves unlike us who are perfectly happy to be at home. But a lot of the time, maybe even most of the time, I struggle with anxiety over it. Asaboy Consumer 3 Posts: 77 Joined: Sun Dec 25, 2011 7:34 pm Local time: Mon Jan 11, 2021 10:35 pm Blog: View Blog (0) Top. Because you are a gift to the people around you you just have to figure out how to be the person you need to be maybe, I know exactly what you are going through. I’m constantly having to ask my family to forgive me for not responding to phone calls/texts because when I hear from someone I dread replying. I know you can’t change anyone in this life and shouldn’t even try, either they love you or they don’t. I love my laptop...but i'm on it most of the day Learn more about working with Thought Catalog. You won’t only be jealous of people who are out having a good time. 4. Home Forums Pregnancy Forums Teen Pregnancy. The devil does exist and he truly hates you and wants your soul. by Cory Turner May 21, 2018 3 minutes. my mom is so cheap she doesn't even what to spend 2grand on a car that she likes better then me. This does not mean you shouldn't seek self improvement or try to be the best you can be. Maybe if I had unlimited time and money I might like to see the world. Has anyone in your family been diagnosed with HS or experienced HS symptoms? God loves you. He does not have the last word. I don't want to leave the house or do anything. What it does mean is that when you try to be something you are not you bring misery upon yourself and those around you. My son and I have a strained relationship along with his girlfriend. I don't want to leave my house. Hi, I was hoping for a bit of advice as I really don't know what to do. It will make you want to venture outside, travel the world, meet new people. Like me, I enrolled for a class that keeps me there till 6pm.It gives me an opportunity to be around people and keep me from staying indoors, This is a nice story and i hope it is really you op and if its not thats still ok as it is an uplifting story that can provide hope. I think u are like me ? After a gunman killed eight students and two teachers at the high school in Santa Fe, Texas, on Friday, memorials to the victims were created. You have no one else to impress, and honestly, you don’t care enough about yourself to take care of yourself for yourself. I like food. I made it clear from day 1 this is how I am. I'm done. You may be able to enlist the help of a trusted friend or relative in these areas as well. I know I have a PROBLEM!! I’m not materialistic and hate to shop. She lives in different country and I have not met her in last 5 years and she keeps telling me to come back but I think of money and dont go back to her. Nope you are not depressed you are basically on a loop. He is really suffering. Update: I am still in school and living with my parents who think i'm weird and pathetic, because I stay in my room all day, I barely speak and if I do i'm angry (why are they speaking to me at all just go away) and I don't know what to do. I am 42 years old and in the last few years I have gotten slowly to where I don't want to leave my house . I am also currently having the same feeling, my university is far away needs atleast 6-7hours travel, I came back to home on holidays but now date of starting next session is announced and I have to go again in that place, I just now realised that I hate that city, the people of the city and also my roomates and I don't wanna go back at all but I will have to go there once again. Life is wonderful but we DO have a powerful enemy who attacks us any way and as often as he can. He likes doing fun things with my family because they have money and material things but I can't enjoy those things because I think my mom and step dad are judging me or mad at me so I don't go over. i feel the same like youu i don't know what wrong with mee... i don't want going inside only on summer ...i love staying at home talk with my internet friends they are so much cool then my real frinds (my felling). The realization that you will no longer be a homeowner has become very clear. I don't love him anymore, but can't leave. By this point I'm fed up of it all. I have been with my fiance 4 years. Whether it’s a toxic relationship or an overall mental exhaustion, the momentum of your life gets quickly tossed out. Hi there! Trust me, everyone in there will, in one way or other, have been put through the wringer by the same evil entity that is trying so hard to hurt you. Take 10 minutes outside each day, just for a walk around the block. Your story gives me great hope that this fear of leaving my home may one day surpass. I talked to him on my walks. My life is beautiful now. So my husband wants to end the marriage but I don’t think he is in his right mind. God made each of us different. I'm 17 and don't have my drivers license! I'm 20 and everyone who's my age are having the best time of their lives. ‘I don’t want to live anymore but I’m scared to die’ is one of the most-searched mental illness confessions on Google. by Cory Turner May 21, 2018 3 minutos. Share. People just like different things. What do I do? A gunman killed eight students and two teachers at Santa Fe High School outside Houston — and scarred hundreds, perhaps thousands more. Hope to hear you are doing much better. Any advice?? I don't want to do anything with my life. Outside there’s a gleaming, glass ocean and mountains pure and clean. Because I’ve searched it myself. I just hate leaving my house. I am moving because I need small and familiar and a place that doesn't feel so busy. I am so happy for you! I once again was deeply depressed. Hopefully we will find what we need soon so we can help others. I have mild anxiety when I have to go to work or run an errand. I’m not depressed, sad, lonely, etc. I’m happy here in our small apartment and anything I’ll ever need is here. You need to go to therapy. We don't always need to know everyone and feel at home. I've gone to group and private therapy. 20 Like . I just don’t like socializing with anyone. I have been with my fiance 4 years. I remind her of the times we did do some stuff which was enjoyable and she says but that was too expensive! So then I get pissed off and we argue even more. I will start picking a fight, just so I can say, well forget it, you just go without me, I don't need this from all of you. You need to do something, anything, differently than what you’ve been doing because you’ve been miserable. Do you want a divorce or separation? I was taught that we get the most out of life when we put God first, others second, and ourselves last, just like Jesus did. 4) I am always insecure at my job and I dont feel confident , I feel the project will fail al the time. Not even my room I have trouble going out my room to the bathroom and kitchen. I have lived with my guy for 8 years and for the most part he accepts it, but every now and then he'll get really angry about it. I felt alive for the first time. Please give me advice. Let's keep each other in our prayers, okay? Can this be fixed? Remember to visit a dermatologist once you've completed the quiz, and talk to them about your answers. Because i am getting very upset with the looks and stares im getting off people. Please answer back. At such a point, most people keep hoping for an external change to bring the momentum back. I don't know how to over come this. You live in a beautiful city, but you have no interest in being a part of it. My mom uses pity and her "history of abuse" to get what she wants. You start wondering whether your friends and family even care about you since they haven’t checked in on you. We live in a digital world. You know you can’t keep isolating yourself. She hates it. Are you me? I hope you are feeling better. But the choice that I have made for myself is just as legitimate. I don’t want to leave my house I’ve been going through a really bad depression for a few weeks and now my dad wants to take me out during the pandemic. I don't know what is wrong or has happened. The position they hold is prestigious. After all, we do need clean clothes. My inbox filled and my voicemail shooed callers because it was at capacity. Im 49, dont leave my house and dont want to, trying to deal with people WANTING me to WANT to. I don't feel depressed, or lonely or anything like that. It's def not a fun thing to deal with , I' jst turned 23 and I'm completly missing out on life:( hole u find something lke counseling or medicine that helps you! You don’t want to sound pathetic by admitting you haven’t left your bed in weeks. Is this how it's going to be. But that can’t always, or maybe ever, mean penetration anymore if you don’t want it to. It … I always think that events sound fun, as long as they're tomorrow or the next day or next week, but as soon as it comes down to actually going, I always want to cancel. It’s the place I go when you annoy the hell out of me or I’m angry. But doctors need to eat and so does everyone else. The stagnation is so overwhelming that you feel like you don’t want to live anymore. You should get therapy if it is affecting your work or life in general. What's wrong with me? I own my own house and I love it. I wish I wasn't so depressed all of the time. Holidays are chaotic and expensive. My husband of 27 years, left me 9 months ago, because he was tired of doing everything by himself. The last year has been the worst I have ever been I have to force my self to even take my daughter to the dr. She was in a horrible accident in feb. and in the hospital and rehab for 2 months . Don’t get me wrong, I am able to leave the house. I get panic attacks when I go out, but never at home. So when I don’t want to do it anymore, I yell, “Story Circle!” and they all come running, favorite books in hand, to listen intently to whatever princess needs saving, treasure needs finding or animal needs rescuing. Click here. House, relationships, family, friends, even some financial investments together. How are you doing? Many people can't handle being alone but it's important to be ok with yourself! Same here. Carrie Rodriguez Band, The Shedd, Eugene, OR January 14, 2009 Band Members: Carrie - Guitar/Mandobird/Fiddle Hans Holzen - Guitar/Mandolin Javier Vercher - Keyboard/Sax/Drums. I feel like the world is going so fast and everyone is going so fast and working so much I am on a strike I never get off of. 'I don't want to live anymore but I'm scared to die' is one of the most-searched red flag mental illness confessions on Google. My daughter and grandchildren go to my sons home a lot and now they have my grandchildren disrespecting me, how do I handle this. Have you experienced tender, swollen bumps, either on or under your skin, that may produce foul-smelling liquid and scarring? Fortunatly there have only been a few of those days. Thanks. 8. Posted Nov 30, 2013 . But I'm older. 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